My First Crush

You'll never forget your first crush. It's was fourth grade, and I was new to the school. I don't remember how I fell for him, but I did. He was smart, tall, and cute. All the girls liked him, and I couldn't help but like him too. The one thing that was different about him than my later crushes was I actually talk to him. We've never held long conversations, but we talked.



 I never wrote about him in my diary because I was afraid my cousin would read it and tease me about it. However my cousins did find out I liked him, and they did teased me about it. When fifth grade arrived, I met a new guy and we became friends instantly. We were always laughing and joking around. I only liked  the new guy as a friend, even though everyone thought I liked him more than a friend. The new guy and my fourth grade crush became friends, and we all hang out. It's weird thinking about it now because I actually had guy friends, and I didn't feel weird about being the only girl.  Although, I didn't like my fourth grade crush anymore, I still thought he was a cool guy.

One thing about my first crush that makes him different that the rest was he actually liked me back. Too bad I never knew this in elementary school because I would have screamed for joy.  I thought after liking him, I would meet amazing guys in middle school and  high school. I didn't. In fact, middle school guys were completely out of the question. Only one guy liked me, and my stupid self didn't like him until I transferred. High school guys were even worst. I didn't think I was the type of girl guys liked in high school. They probably thought I was weird, so I spent most of high school crushing on celebrities.

Then there's college. I thought it would finally get better, but so far it hasn't.  Like high school, in the beginning of my freshman year in college I often compare myself to what guys liked. For some reason I thought I wasn't close to being the girl they would like. I was really harsh on myself back in high school and my early college years.  Now my only focus in college these days are getting a degree and later a successful career. 

Although I have met and liked guys after my fourth grade crush there were times that I thought of him. I think the reason why I thought of him because I've never met a guy who I'd liked that liked me back. To me, you'll never forget the crush that liked you backed.


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